100 Days of Why: Fifty-Eight

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Day 1:  To be the best role model for my son

Day 2:  To buy clothes that I love and not just clothes that fit

Day 3:  To feel comfortable in my own skin

Day 4:  To never need to question if my weight was part of any failure/opinion/etc.

Day 5:  To walk in the room like I deserve to be there

Day 6:  To be truly healthy

Day 7:  To feel in control

Day 8:  To live a better life

Day 9:  To stop starting over

Day 10:  To gain energy–Physically, Mentally, Spiritually

Day 11:  To have a vast array of beautiful undergarments

Day 12:  To love myself

Day 13: To end the cycle

Day 14: To feel comfortable on the beach

Day 15: To build a wardrobe

Day 16:  To fall in love with exercise…To have it function as a hobby and a replacement of    food when feeling stressed, etc.

Day 17: Because eating right feels good

Day 18: To treat myself the way I’d treat someone else-to speak kindly, to love, to be understanding…

Day 19: To be proud of myself

Day 20:  To start living

Day 21: Because I’m sick of being tired.

Day 22: To like what I see when I look in the mirror

Day 23:  Because I want to.

Day 24: Because it’s the one thing in my life that I have total and complete control over

Day 25: Because there’s no greater feeling than success

Day 26: To further prove to myself that I can do anything

Day 27: To spend my time worrying about more important things

Day 28: To stop sucking in

Day 29: Because I want to want to be in pictures

Day 30: To raise my family to have healthy habits

Day 31: To be fit/active before my next pregnancy

Day 32:  To sort through and finally rid of my multiple clothes bins

Day 33:  To hopefully remedy my cracked heel issues

Day 34:  To become a lifetime member and stop paying weight watchers

Day 35:  To look strong and sexy

Day 36:  To help/inspire others to lose weight, too

Day 37:  To be able to buy things online without needing to try them on because I know my size

Day 38:  To focus on me without feeling bad

Day 39:  One word…lingerie

Day 40: To live a long life

Day 41: To stop bingeing

Day 42: So my ankles stop hurting when I stand or walk for too long

Day 43: To be more positive…when you feel better about yourself, you feel better about everything else

Day 44: To sweat less!

Day 45: To expand my boot options for the winter…Hopefully, my calves will lose some inches during this process.  And if they don’t, to know it’s not because of the weight,
but rather because it’s my build.

Day 46: To shop in boutiques

Day 47: To come out of my shell and be more social

Day 48: To wear colors other than black

Day 49: To be comfortable to add dresses and non-maxi length skirts, not just pants, to my wardrobe.

Day 50: To make my husband proud

Day 51:  To finally earn all of my Weight Watchers bling

Day 52: To be a success story

Day 53: To stop feeling jealous/less than when I see others who have had success

Day 54: To treat my body well

Day 55: To stop feeling bloated

Day 56:  To only eat foods that I truly enjoy or that make me feel good

Day 57:  To never have to look back again and say, “I should’ve started then.”

Background of each “why” is from Apple Keynote “Exhibition”

100 Days of Why: Fifty-Seven

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Day 1:  To be the best role model for my son

Day 2:  To buy clothes that I love and not just clothes that fit

Day 3:  To feel comfortable in my own skin

Day 4:  To never need to question if my weight was part of any failure/opinion/etc.

Day 5:  To walk in the room like I deserve to be there

Day 6:  To be truly healthy

Day 7:  To feel in control

Day 8:  To live a better life

Day 9:  To stop starting over

Day 10:  To gain energy–Physically, Mentally, Spiritually

Day 11:  To have a vast array of beautiful undergarments

Day 12:  To love myself

Day 13: To end the cycle

Day 14: To feel comfortable on the beach

Day 15: To build a wardrobe

Day 16:  To fall in love with exercise…To have it function as a hobby and a replacement of    food when feeling stressed, etc.

Day 17: Because eating right feels good

Day 18: To treat myself the way I’d treat someone else-to speak kindly, to love, to be understanding…

Day 19: To be proud of myself

Day 20:  To start living

Day 21: Because I’m sick of being tired.

Day 22: To like what I see when I look in the mirror

Day 23:  Because I want to.

Day 24: Because it’s the one thing in my life that I have total and complete control over

Day 25: Because there’s no greater feeling than success

Day 26: To further prove to myself that I can do anything

Day 27: To spend my time worrying about more important things

Day 28: To stop sucking in

Day 29: Because I want to want to be in pictures

Day 30: To raise my family to have healthy habits

Day 31: To be fit/active before my next pregnancy

Day 32:  To sort through and finally rid of my multiple clothes bins

Day 33:  To hopefully remedy my cracked heel issues

Day 34:  To become a lifetime member and stop paying weight watchers

Day 35:  To look strong and sexy

Day 36:  To help/inspire others to lose weight, too

Day 37:  To be able to buy things online without needing to try them on because I know my size

Day 38:  To focus on me without feeling bad

Day 39:  One word…lingerie

Day 40: To live a long life

Day 41: To stop bingeing

Day 42: So my ankles stop hurting when I stand or walk for too long

Day 43: To be more positive…when you feel better about yourself, you feel better about everything else

Day 44: To sweat less!

Day 45: To expand my boot options for the winter…Hopefully, my calves will lose some inches during this process.  And if they don’t, to know it’s not because of the weight,
but rather because it’s my build.

Day 46: To shop in boutiques

Day 47: To come out of my shell and be more social

Day 48: To wear colors other than black

Day 49: To be comfortable to add dresses and non-maxi length skirts, not just pants, to my wardrobe.

Day 50: To make my husband proud

Day 51:  To finally earn all of my Weight Watchers bling

Day 52: To be a success story

Day 53: To stop feeling jealous/less than when I see others who have had success

Day 54: To treat my body well

Day 55: To stop feeling bloated

Day 56:  To only eat foods that I truly enjoy or that make me feel good

Background of each “why” is from Apple Keynote “Exhibition”

New beginnings

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I, like many others, always tell myself that summer will make it all better.  I’ll have more time, more focus, more opportunities, better weather, etc.  While that is all very true, I also have more responsibilities, more parties, more freedom (which can be good or bad), etc.

Since restarting weight watchers in January, I have lost a total of 13.2 pounds.  A leader many years ago once said, “Let’s be honest, even when you aren’t fully on program, it’s still there lurking in the back of your head.”  I whole heartedly agree with this.  I’ve probably honestly earned about seven of those thirteen pounds.  Considering I have not been fully committed and on program consistently over these past six months, that’s a pretty remarkable loss in my book.

The problem here is what I always seem to come back to.  I am not happy in my skin.  And this happiness is completely and utterly in my control.  Toward the end of the school year, I made a promise to myself that I would track everything, on program or not.  In doing this, I lost about 4-5 pounds (even when I was completely over my weeklies).  I attribute this to the fact that I was mindful of what I was putting in my mouth. Clearly, Weight Watchers works when you do (duh) and so I need to get back to following the plan.

Because I am very type A and maybe a little OCD,  strange things set me off/get me motivated.  The problem with this is that while it can help lead to my rise, it can also easily cause my demise.  Whenever I feel the need to recommit to the program, I look at the calendar and see if I can find some date to motivate me (NOTE:  As I just typed that lightening struck my brain. Maybe this isn’t helping me at all since I always do it and it has yet to work…hell, I am a creature of habit, so I’ll do it again.)  There are 16 weeks until my birthday.  I think that is a reasonable time to see some results.  My goal is to lose at least a pound a week (which frankly, sounds like nothing, but will add up over a year’s time).  I figure if I am honestly committed to the program and do not get the results that I want in that time, then I can quit, change programs, cry, stomp, etc.  However, if I do not follow the program of (wait for it) MY CHOICE and do not see results then I am not permitted to complain at all about the reflection I see staring back at me.

I don’t know about you, but I am tired of looking at the weeks and thinking, “Wow, if I had only started when I said I would then think of where I would be.”  And the funny thing about all of this is that it becomes sort of addicting, at least for me.  Once I start tracking and losing, I don’t want to break my streak and it becomes easier and easier to stick to the program and meet my goals.  It’s getting started that is the hardest part and yet I constantly make it so that I have to do just that.

I do plan on writing more (and not just my 100 days of why posts) as it helps me to sort out my thoughts and stay motivated.  It’s been difficult being home this summer because I struggle to pull myself away (or wake up earlier) to fit in the ME time that I so desperately need.  I, like always, have put myself on the back burner and I do it so often that I don’t even realize it when it happens anymore.

Thanks for sticking by me.  I am sure that you’d rather be reading a motivating success story, but as of right now, this is where I am at.

One day at a time, one foot in front of the other…join me as I begin again.

100 Days of Why: Fifty-six

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Day 1:  To be the best role model for my son

Day 2:  To buy clothes that I love and not just clothes that fit

Day 3:  To feel comfortable in my own skin

Day 4:  To never need to question if my weight was part of any failure/opinion/etc.

Day 5:  To walk in the room like I deserve to be there

Day 6:  To be truly healthy

Day 7:  To feel in control

Day 8:  To live a better life

Day 9:  To stop starting over

Day 10:  To gain energy–Physically, Mentally, Spiritually

Day 11:  To have a vast array of beautiful undergarments

Day 12:  To love myself

Day 13: To end the cycle

Day 14: To feel comfortable on the beach

Day 15: To build a wardrobe

Day 16:  To fall in love with exercise…To have it function as a hobby and a replacement of    food when feeling stressed, etc.

Day 17: Because eating right feels good

Day 18: To treat myself the way I’d treat someone else-to speak kindly, to love, to be understanding…

Day 19: To be proud of myself

Day 20:  To start living

Day 21: Because I’m sick of being tired.

Day 22: To like what I see when I look in the mirror

Day 23:  Because I want to.

Day 24: Because it’s the one thing in my life that I have total and complete control over

Day 25: Because there’s no greater feeling than success

Day 26: To further prove to myself that I can do anything

Day 27: To spend my time worrying about more important things

Day 28: To stop sucking in

Day 29: Because I want to want to be in pictures

Day 30: To raise my family to have healthy habits

Day 31: To be fit/active before my next pregnancy

Day 32:  To sort through and finally rid of my multiple clothes bins

Day 33:  To hopefully remedy my cracked heel issues

Day 34:  To become a lifetime member and stop paying weight watchers

Day 35:  To look strong and sexy

Day 36:  To help/inspire others to lose weight, too

Day 37:  To be able to buy things online without needing to try them on because I know my size

Day 38:  To focus on me without feeling bad

Day 39:  One word…lingerie

Day 40: To live a long life

Day 41: To stop bingeing

Day 42: So my ankles stop hurting when I stand or walk for too long

Day 43: To be more positive…when you feel better about yourself, you feel better about everything else

Day 44: To sweat less!

Day 45: To expand my boot options for the winter…Hopefully, my calves will lose some inches during this process.  And if they don’t, to know it’s not because of the weight,
but rather because it’s my build.

Day 46: To shop in boutiques

Day 47: To come out of my shell and be more social

Day 48: To wear colors other than black

Day 49: To be comfortable to add dresses and non-maxi length skirts, not just pants, to my wardrobe.

Day 50: To make my husband proud

Day 51:  To finally earn all of my Weight Watchers bling

Day 52: To be a success story

Day 53: To stop feeling jealous/less than when I see others who have had success

Day 54: To treat my body well

Day 55: To stop feeling bloated

Background of each “why” is from Apple Keynote “Exhibition”

100 Days of Why: Fifty-two – Fifty-five

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Day 1:  To be the best role model for my son

Day 2:  To buy clothes that I love and not just clothes that fit

Day 3:  To feel comfortable in my own skin

Day 4:  To never need to question if my weight was part of any failure/opinion/etc.

Day 5:  To walk in the room like I deserve to be there

Day 6:  To be truly healthy

Day 7:  To feel in control

Day 8:  To live a better life

Day 9:  To stop starting over

Day 10:  To gain energy–Physically, Mentally, Spiritually

Day 11:  To have a vast array of beautiful undergarments

Day 12:  To love myself

Day 13: To end the cycle

Day 14: To feel comfortable on the beach

Day 15: To build a wardrobe

Day 16:  To fall in love with exercise…To have it function as a hobby and a replacement of    food when feeling stressed, etc.

Day 17: Because eating right feels good

Day 18: To treat myself the way I’d treat someone else-to speak kindly, to love, to be understanding…

Day 19: To be proud of myself

Day 20:  To start living

Day 21: Because I’m sick of being tired.

Day 22: To like what I see when I look in the mirror

Day 23:  Because I want to.

Day 24: Because it’s the one thing in my life that I have total and complete control over

Day 25: Because there’s no greater feeling than success

Day 26: To further prove to myself that I can do anything

Day 27: To spend my time worrying about more important things

Day 28: To stop sucking in

Day 29: Because I want to want to be in pictures

Day 30: To raise my family to have healthy habits

Day 31: To be fit/active before my next pregnancy

Day 32:  To sort through and finally rid of my multiple clothes bins

Day 33:  To hopefully remedy my cracked heel issues

Day 34:  To become a lifetime member and stop paying weight watchers

Day 35:  To look strong and sexy

Day 36:  To help/inspire others to lose weight, too

Day 37:  To be able to buy things online without needing to try them on because I know my size

Day 38:  To focus on me without feeling bad

Day 39:  One word…lingerie

Day 40: To live a long life

Day 41: To stop bingeing

Day 42: So my ankles stop hurting when I stand or walk for too long

Day 43: To be more positive…when you feel better about yourself, you feel better about everything else

Day 44: To sweat less!

Day 45: To expand my boot options for the winter…Hopefully, my calves will lose some inches during this process.  And if they don’t, to know it’s not because of the weight,
but rather because it’s my build.

Day 46: To shop in boutiques

Day 47: To come out of my shell and be more social

Day 48: To wear colors other than black

Day 49: To be comfortable to add dresses and non-maxi length skirts, not just pants, to my wardrobe.

Day 50: To make my husband proud

Day 51:  To finally earn all of my Weight Watchers bling

Background of each “why” is from Apple KeyNote “Exhibition”

100 Days of Why: Day Fifty-one

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Day 1:  To be the best role model for my son

Day 2:  To buy clothes that I love and not just clothes that fit

Day 3:  To feel comfortable in my own skin

Day 4:  To never need to question if my weight was part of any failure/opinion/etc.

Day 5:  To walk in the room like I deserve to be there

Day 6:  To be truly healthy

Day 7:  To feel in control

Day 8:  To live a better life

Day 9:  To stop starting over

Day 10:  To gain energy–Physically, Mentally, Spiritually

Day 11:  To have a vast array of beautiful undergarments

Day 12:  To love myself

Day 13: To end the cycle

Day 14: To feel comfortable on the beach

Day 15: To build a wardrobe

Day 16:  To fall in love with exercise…To have it function as a hobby and a replacement of    food when feeling stressed, etc.

Day 17: Because eating right feels good

Day 18: To treat myself the way I’d treat someone else-to speak kindly, to love, to be understanding…

Day 19: To be proud of myself

Day 20:  To start living

Day 21: Because I’m sick of being tired.

Day 22: To like what I see when I look in the mirror

Day 23:  Because I want to.

Day 24: Because it’s the one thing in my life that I have total and complete control over

Day 25: Because there’s no greater feeling than success

Day 26: To further prove to myself that I can do anything

Day 27: To spend my time worrying about more important things

Day 28: To stop sucking in

Day 29: Because I want to want to be in pictures

Day 30: To raise my family to have healthy habits

Day 31: To be fit/active before my next pregnancy

Day 32:  To sort through and finally rid of my multiple clothes bins

Day 33:  To hopefully remedy my cracked heel issues

Day 34:  To become a lifetime member and stop paying weight watchers

Day 35:  To look strong and sexy

Day 36:  To help/inspire others to lose weight, too

Day 37:  To be able to buy things online without needing to try them on because I know my size

Day 38:  To focus on me without feeling bad

Day 39:  One word…lingerie

Day 40: To live a long life

Day 41: To stop bingeing

Day 42: So my ankles stop hurting when I stand or walk for too long

Day 43: To be more positive…when you feel better about yourself, you feel better about everything else

Day 44: To sweat less!

Day 45: To expand my boot options for the winter…Hopefully, my calves will lose some inches during this process.  And if they don’t, to know it’s not because of the weight,
but rather because it’s my build.

Day 46: To shop in boutiques

Day 47: To come out of my shell and be more social

Day 48: To wear colors other than black

Day 49: To be comfortable to add dresses and non-maxi length skirts, not just pants, to my wardrobe.

Day 50: To make my husband proud

 

Background of each “why” used from Apple KeyNote “Exhibition”

100 Days of Why: FIFTY

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Day 1:  To be the best role model for my son

Day 2:  To buy clothes that I love and not just clothes that fit

Day 3:  To feel comfortable in my own skin

Day 4:  To never need to question if my weight was part of any failure/opinion/etc.

Day 5:  To walk in the room like I deserve to be there

Day 6:  To be truly healthy

Day 7:  To feel in control

Day 8:  To live a better life

Day 9:  To stop starting over

Day 10:  To gain energy–Physically, Mentally, Spiritually

Day 11:  To have a vast array of beautiful undergarments

Day 12:  To love myself

Day 13: To end the cycle

Day 14: To feel comfortable on the beach

Day 15: To build a wardrobe

Day 16:  To fall in love with exercise…To have it function as a hobby and a replacement of    food when feeling stressed, etc.

Day 17: Because eating right feels good

Day 18: To treat myself the way I’d treat someone else-to speak kindly, to love, to be understanding…

Day 19: To be proud of myself

Day 20:  To start living

Day 21: Because I’m sick of being tired.

Day 22: To like what I see when I look in the mirror

Day 23:  Because I want to.

Day 24: Because it’s the one thing in my life that I have total and complete control over

Day 25: Because there’s no greater feeling than success

Day 26: To further prove to myself that I can do anything

Day 27: To spend my time worrying about more important things

Day 28: To stop sucking in

Day 29: Because I want to want to be in pictures

Day 30: To raise my family to have healthy habits

Day 31: To be fit/active before my next pregnancy

Day 32:  To sort through and finally rid of my multiple clothes bins

Day 33:  To hopefully remedy my cracked heel issues

Day 34:  To become a lifetime member and stop paying weight watchers

Day 35:  To look strong and sexy

Day 36:  To help/inspire others to lose weight, too

Day 37:  To be able to buy things online without needing to try them on because I know my size

Day 38:  To focus on me without feeling bad

Day 39:  One word…lingerie

Day 40: To live a long life

Day 41: To stop bingeing

Day 42: So my ankles stop hurting when I stand or walk for too long

Day 43: To be more positive…when you feel better about yourself, you feel better about everything else

Day 44: To sweat less!

Day 45: To expand my boot options for the winter…Hopefully, my calves will lose some inches during this process.  And if they don’t, to know it’s not because of the weight,
but rather because it’s my build.

Day 46: To shop in boutiques

Day 47: To come out of my shell and be more social

Day 48: To wear colors other than black

Day 49: To be comfortable to add dresses and non-maxi length skirts, not just pants, to my wardrobe.

 

Background of each “why” is from Apple KeyNote “Exhibition”