100 Days of Why: Thirty-nine

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Day 1:  To be the best role model for my son

Day 2:  To buy clothes that I love and not just clothes that fit

Day 3:  To feel comfortable in my own skin

Day 4:  To never need to question if my weight was part of any failure/opinion/etc.

Day 5:  To walk in the room like I deserve to be there

Day 6:  To be truly healthy

Day 7:  To feel in control

Day 8:  To live a better life

Day 9:  To stop starting over

Day 10:  To gain energy–Physically, Mentally, Spiritually

Day 11:  To have a vast array of beautiful undergarments

Day 12:  To love myself

Day 13: To end the cycle

Day 14: To feel comfortable on the beach

Day 15: To build a wardrobe

Day 16:  To fall in love with exercise…To have it function as a hobby and a replacement of    food when feeling stressed, etc.

Day 17: Because eating right feels good

Day 18: To treat myself the way I’d treat someone else-to speak kindly, to love, to be understanding…

Day 19: To be proud of myself

Day 20:  To start living

Day 21: Because I’m sick of being tired.

Day 22: To like what I see when I look in the mirror

Day 23:  Because I want to.

Day 24: Because it’s the one thing in my life that I have total and complete control over

Day 25: Because there’s no greater feeling than success

Day 26: To further prove to myself that I can do anything

Day 27: To spend my time worrying about more important things

Day 28: To stop sucking in

Day 29: Because I want to want to be in pictures

Day 30: To raise my family to have healthy habits

Day 31: To be fit/active before my next pregnancy

Day 32:  To sort through and finally rid of my multiple clothes bins

Day 33:  To hopefully remedy my cracked heel issues

Day 34:  To become a lifetime member and stop paying weight watchers

Day 35:  To look strong and sexy

Day 36:  To help/inspire others to lose weight, too

Day 37:  To be able to buy things online without needing to try them on because I know my size

Day 38:  To focus on me without feeling bad

 

Background of each “why” is from Apple KeyNote “Exhibition”

100 Days of Why: Thirty-four to Thirty-eight

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Day 1:  To be the best role model for my son

Day 2:  To buy clothes that I love and not just clothes that fit

Day 3:  To feel comfortable in my own skin

Day 4:  To never need to question if my weight was part of any failure/opinion/etc.

Day 5:  To walk in the room like I deserve to be there

Day 6:  To be truly healthy

Day 7:  To feel in control

Day 8:  To live a better life

Day 9:  To stop starting over

Day 10:  To gain energy–Physically, Mentally, Spiritually

Day 11:  To have a vast array of beautiful undergarments

Day 12:  To love myself

Day 13: To end the cycle

Day 14: To feel comfortable on the beach

Day 15: To build a wardrobe

Day 16:  To fall in love with exercise…To have it function as a hobby and a replacement of    food when feeling stressed, etc.

Day 17: Because eating right feels good

Day 18: To treat myself the way I’d treat someone else-to speak kindly, to love, to be understanding…

Day 19: To be proud of myself

Day 20:  To start living

Day 21: Because I’m sick of being tired.

Day 22: To like what I see when I look in the mirror

Day 23:  Because I want to.

Day 24: Because it’s the one thing in my life that I have total and complete control over

Day 25: Because there’s no greater feeling than success

Day 26: To further prove to myself that I can do anything

Day 27: To spend my time worrying about more important things

Day 28: To stop sucking in

Day 29: Because I want to want to be in pictures

Day 30: To raise my family to have healthy habits

Day 31: To be fit/active before my next pregnancy

Day 32:  To sort through and finally rid of my multiple clothes bins

Day 33:  To hopefully remedy my cracked heel issues

Background of each “why” is from Apple KeyNote “Exhibition”

100 Days of Why: Thirty-three

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Day 1:  To be the best role model for my son

Day 2:  To buy clothes that I love and not just clothes that fit

Day 3:  To feel comfortable in my own skin

Day 4:  To never need to question if my weight was part of any failure/opinion/etc.

Day 5:  To walk in the room like I deserve to be there

Day 6:  To be truly healthy

Day 7:  To feel in control

Day 8:  To live a better life

Day 9:  To stop starting over

Day 10:  To gain energy–Physically, Mentally, Spiritually

Day 11:  To have a vast array of beautiful undergarments

Day 12:  To love myself

Day 13: To end the cycle

Day 14: To feel comfortable on the beach

Day 15: To build a wardrobe

Day 16:  To fall in love with exercise…To have it function as a hobby and a replacement of    food when feeling stressed, etc.

Day 17: Because eating right feels good

Day 18: To treat myself the way I’d treat someone else-to speak kindly, to love, to be understanding…

Day 19: To be proud of myself

Day 20:  To start living

Day 21: Because I’m sick of being tired.

Day 22: To like what I see when I look in the mirror

Day 23:  Because I want to.

Day 24: Because it’s the one thing in my life that I have total and complete control over

Day 25: Because there’s no greater feeling than success

Day 26: To further prove to myself that I can do anything

Day 27: To spend my time worrying about more important things

Day 28: To stop sucking in

Day 29: Because I want to want to be in pictures

Day 30: To raise my family to have healthy habits

Day 31: To be fit/active before my next pregnancy

Day 32:  To sort through and finally rid of my multiple clothes bins

Background of each “why” is from Apple KeyNote “Exhibition”

100 Days of Why: Thirty-two

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Day 1:  To be the best role model for my son

Day 2:  To buy clothes that I love and not just clothes that fit

Day 3:  To feel comfortable in my own skin

Day 4:  To never need to question if my weight was part of any failure/opinion/etc.

Day 5:  To walk in the room like I deserve to be there

Day 6:  To be truly healthy

Day 7:  To feel in control

Day 8:  To live a better life

Day 9:  To stop starting over

Day 10:  To gain energy–Physically, Mentally, Spiritually

Day 11:  To have a vast array of beautiful undergarments

Day 12:  To love myself

Day 13: To end the cycle

Day 14: To feel comfortable on the beach

Day 15: To build a wardrobe

Day 16:  To fall in love with exercise…To have it function as a hobby and a replacement of    food when feeling stressed, etc.

Day 17: Because eating right feels good

Day 18: To treat myself the way I’d treat someone else-to speak kindly, to love, to be understanding…

Day 19: To be proud of myself

Day 20:  To start living

Day 21: Because I’m sick of being tired.

Day 22: To like what I see when I look in the mirror

Day 23:  Because I want to.

Day 24: Because it’s the one thing in my life that I have total and complete control over

Day 25: Because there’s no greater feeling than success

Day 26: To further prove to myself that I can do anything

Day 27: To spend my time worrying about more important things

Day 28: To stop sucking in

Day 29: Because I want to want to be in pictures

Day 30: To raise my family to have healthy habits

Day 31: To be fit/active before my next pregnancy

Background of each “why” is from Apple KeyNote “Exhibition”

100 Days of Why: Twenty-five – Thirty-one

Sorry I’ve been MIA.  This was a super busy few weeks at work.  Finally getting the chance to sit down and add to my whys.  I have a ton of other posts to add too.  School’s out as of Friday afternoon, so things will become more consistent again.

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Day 1:  To be the best role model for my son

Day 2:  To buy clothes that I love and not just clothes that fit

Day 3:  To feel comfortable in my own skin

Day 4:  To never need to question if my weight was part of any failure/opinion/etc.

Day 5:  To walk in the room like I deserve to be there

Day 6:  To be truly healthy

Day 7:  To feel in control

Day 8:  To live a better life

Day 9:  To stop starting over

Day 10:  To gain energy–Physically, Mentally, Spiritually

Day 11:  To have a vast array of beautiful undergarments

Day 12:  To love myself

Day 13: To end the cycle

Day 14: To feel comfortable on the beach

Day 15: To build a wardrobe

Day 16:  To fall in love with exercise…To have it function as a hobby and a replacement of    food when feeling stressed, etc.

Day 17: Because eating right feels good

Day 18: To treat myself the way I’d treat someone else-to speak kindly, to love, to be understanding…

Day 19: To be proud of myself

Day 20:  To start living

Day 21: Because I’m sick of being tired.

Day 22: To like what I see when I look in the mirror

Day 23:  Because I want to.

Day 24:  Because it’s the one thing in my life that I have total and complete control over.

Background of each “why” is from Apple KeyNote “Exhibition”

100 Days of Why: Twenty-four

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Day 1:  To be the best role model for my son

Day 2:  To buy clothes that I love and not just clothes that fit

Day 3:  To feel comfortable in my own skin

Day 4:  To never need to question if my weight was part of any failure/opinion/etc.

Day 5:  To walk in the room like I deserve to be there

Day 6:  To be truly healthy

Day 7:  To feel in control

Day 8:  To live a better life

Day 9:  To stop starting over

Day 10:  To gain energy–Physically, Mentally, Spiritually

Day 11:  To have a vast array of beautiful undergarments

Day 12:  To love myself

Day 13: To end the cycle

Day 14: To feel comfortable on the beach

Day 15: To build a wardrobe

Day 16:  To fall in love with exercise…To have it function as a hobby and a replacement of    food when feeling stressed, etc.

Day 17: Because eating right feels good

Day 18: To treat myself the way I’d treat someone else-to speak kindly, to love, to be understanding…

Day 19: To be proud of myself

Day 20:  To start living

Day 21: Because I’m sick of being tired.

Day 22: To like what I see when I look in the mirror

Day 23:  Because I want to.

Background of each “why” is from Apple KeyNote “Exhibition”

Blue Dots

IMG_0438.JPGI am a planner freak and I love writing things down. I find strange pleasure in crossing things off of my to do list, touching paper pages, etc.   It drives my husband nuts–he is a techie and very into digital calendars, lists, etc.  We are quite opposite in this respect.

This week during my meeting, we discussed ways to stay motivated that didn’t have to do with the scale.  One person shared that they loved getting stickers (for lack of a better term) from their Fitbit when they reached their step goal, walked a certain amount, etc.  Another person shared that they were really into the blue dots on their Weight Watchers app (for those of you who aren’t sure what this is referring to…if you open your app and click  journey at the bottom, you’ll see a calendar that documents whether you stayed within a certain range of your Smart Points for the day).

I was trying to complete the Blue dot challenge, but found that I would become discouraged and frustrated (part of my Type A personality I guess…more about that in another post) when I went over my range (27-37 points for me).  Sure I had the weekly points to use, but for some reason this actually hurt me rather than help me.

Instead of doing the Weight Watchers version of the Blue Dot Challenge, I’ve created my own.  One thing that I’ve been struggling with on my present journey (and frankly on my past journeys on the program) is whole heartedly tracking.  What’s interesting and funny about this is that this is the most important piece of this particular program.

As I shared in an earlier post, I had been having a lot of trouble finding my motivation and getting started again.  I made a promise to myself that June 3 would be my day of recommitment (otherwise, I wasn’t allowed to b*tch or be sad about how I looked…either do it or don’t…yes, this was the conversation that I had with myself that previous week).

Throughout the week leading up to D day, I sat and thought about what I would need to do in order to be successful.  TRACk was on the top of the list.  It’s funny the games we play with ourselves.  “Oh, I ate that and it will put me way over my points, so I won’t write it.” You still ate it, moron! So this is where I decided to start.

I decided that rather than try to get a Weight Watchers blue dot everyday, I would give myself a blue sticker in my planner for every day that I tracked–the good, the bad, the ugly.  Guess what?  It helped to keep me focused, helped me to balance my food intake (treat today, cut back tomorrow), rid me of the guilt I felt for tracking or not tracking something, and finally, helped me to lose 1.6 on Saturday.  Most importantly, I felt good about myself.

I think that one week of honest tracking was the ZAP I needed to get back into the swing of things.  I am feeling good.

And the best part…I am -26 points as of today and I don’t care what the scale says this week. I am proud that I am sticking to my goal of tracking it all!

100 Days of Why: Twenty-three

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**Somehow, I have more posts than I should.  Now I am on the correct track..lol!  I got 100 days of why happy!

Day 1:  To be the best role model for my son

Day 2:  To buy clothes that I love and not just clothes that fit

Day 3:  To feel comfortable in my own skin

Day 4:  To never need to question if my weight was part of any failure/opinion/etc.

Day 5:  To walk in the room like I deserve to be there

Day 6:  To be truly healthy

Day 7:  To feel in control

Day 8:  To live a better life

Day 9:  To stop starting over

Day 10:  To gain energy–Physically, Mentally, Spiritually

Day 11:  To have a vast array of beautiful undergarments

Day 12:  To love myself

Day 13: To end the cycle

Day 14: To feel comfortable on the beach

Day 15: To build a wardrobe

Day 16:  To fall in love with exercise…To have it function as a hobby and a replacement of    food when feeling stressed, etc.

Day 17: Because eating right feels good

Day 18: To treat myself the way I’d treat someone else-to speak kindly, to love, to be understanding…

Day 19: To be proud of myself

Day 20:  To start living

Day 21: Because I’m sick of being tired.

Day 22: To like what I see when I look in the mirror

Background of each “why” is from Apple KeyNote “Exhibition”

100 Days of Why: Twenty-two

 

Screen Shot 2017-06-10 at 7.39.18 AM.pngDay 1:  To be the best role model for my son

Day 2:  To buy clothes that I love and not just clothes that fit

Day 3:  To feel comfortable in my own skin

Day 4:  To never need to question if my weight was part of any failure/opinion/etc.

Day 5:  To walk in the room like I deserve to be there

Day 6:  To be truly healthy

Day 7:  To feel in control

Day 8:  To live a better life

Day 9:  To stop starting over

Day 10:  To gain energy–Physically, Mentally, Spiritually

Day 11:  To have a vast array of beautiful undergarments

Day 12:  To love myself

Day 13: To end the cycle

Day 14: To feel comfortable on the beach

Day 15: To build a wardrobe

Day 16:  To fall in love with exercise…To have it function as a hobby and a replacement of    food when feeling stressed, etc.

Day 17: Because eating right feels good

Day 18: To treat myself the way I’d treat someone else-to speak kindly, to love, to be understanding…

Day 19: To be proud of myself

Day 20:  To start living

Day 21: Because I’m sick of being tired.

Background of each “why” is from Apple KeyNote “Exhibition”

100 Days of Why: Twenty-one

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Day 1:  To be the best role model for my son

Day 2:  To buy clothes that I love and not just clothes that fit

Day 3:  To feel comfortable in my own skin

Day 4:  To never need to question if my weight was part of any failure/opinion/etc.

Day 5:  To walk in the room like I deserve to be there

Day 6:  To be truly healthy

Day 7:  To feel in control

Day 8:  To live a better life

Day 9:  To stop starting over

Day 10:  To gain energy–Physically, Mentally, Spiritually

Day 11:  To have a vast array of beautiful undergarments

Day 12:  To love myself

Day 13: To end the cycle

Day 14: To feel comfortable on the beach

Day 15: To build a wardrobe

Day 16:  To fall in love with exercise…To have it function as a hobby and a replacement of    food when feeling stressed, etc.

Day 17: Because eating right feels good

Day 18: To treat myself the way I’d treat someone else-to speak kindly, to love, to be understanding…

Day 19: To be proud of myself

Day 20:  To start living

Background of each “why” is from Apple KeyNote “Exhibition”